Sick but No Sick Time

Ugh! Going into my 3rd week and I've been really questioning why I'm being called to teach right now. There's obviously some message that God is trying to get me to understand... is it humility? Compassion? Competence? Self-Worth? Sacrifice?

In the past five years, I've gone from full time college student, to part-time bank teller, to full-time customer service rep, to charter school teacher, to public school teacher and I'm still not satisfied. I feeling like teaching ain't my passion, and it's getting harder to get up and go to school everyday.

What I'd like to do (which is what I was *thisclose* to getting this past summer) is advise students of color about the college admissions process or collect oral histories of African American elders for a museum or college/university. In the meantime, I suppose that this year will be my chance to stack money and set goals for an escape date sooner than later.

Fellow teachers, any advice that you have about 2nd year burnout, charter vs. public schools, quarter year crisis, etc. will be greatly appreciated.

Week #1

Well, I made it through the entire week without crying. And then... the tears came late Sunday evening. The differences between this school and my old school are profound!

Old School:

• small, 'close-knit' environment (children often in the same classes together year after year)
• some parents/teachers have too close of a relationship w/ administration, resulting in many unprofessional situations
  
• no school-wide curriculum
• limited resources for special education/talented and gifted children
• long hours, low pay
• reasonable teaching load (1 class each--ELA & S.S., Sustained Silent Reading)
• remained in the same room for 2 out of 3 classes/ my own filing cabinet & storage space
  

New School:

• larger, more impersonal environment (children coming from a wide variety of schools/educational levels)
• administration has a backbone (my assistant principal is the bomb and will suspend a child in a heartbeat)!
• pacing guide, scripted lesson plans for the 1st three weeks
• somewhat adequate resources for special education/talented and gifted children (although not enough paraprofessionals and aides to go around)
• shorter hours, better pay
• reasonable teaching load (3 classes of ELA + duty 2-3 times a week)
• floating for all three classes, no filing cabinet or storage space beyond what the regular teacher gives

So, while I'm truly grateful for the opportunity to continue to teach, I've got to find my niche so that I'm not stressed out on Sunday evenings. Mainly, I need to find a way to balance the paperwork, get the discipline issues in order, and prepare as much as possible for the next day before I leave the school building.

Day 1

Well ya'll, I made it! Day 1 down, 179 left! Overall, it was a good day. I started off strong by reviewing my classroom expectations and procedures with the kids. I'm a floater this year and I have 3 preps so it's going to take some time to smooth out my schedule. Right off the bat, I can tell that my 1st period and last period groups have been in 'sub mode' aka I'm still gonna try to get over on this teacher even though I clearly acknowledged her request, so I've got to get them back into shape quickly. Thankfully, there's a school wide discipline policy so that should alleviate some of the chronic line-steppers. Speaking of that, teachers, how do you handle students who constantly test the rules? I have about 3-4 students in each of my classes that I'm going to have to keep a tight leash on, at least for the first couple of months.

Hustlin'

Well, here's a quick update of the events that have happened since last week:

1) My team teacher gave his resignation on Monday, leaving me as the only upper grade teacher left on staff from last year.

2) The VP finally decides to assign me English (6, 7, and 8th + a section of writing).

3) I had an interview with a unionized charter school yesterday.

4) I received a telephone call from my local public school district yesterday afternoon requesting my presence at the new hire orientation this Friday (Last week, I had an interview w/ a Middle School principal. She used to work at my high school and basically hired me on the spot, contingent upon the district hiring me under a waiver until I become fully certified).

5) Ever so leery of charter schools, I called the unionized charter school back today and told them that I found a position elsewhere.

6) I turned in my letter of resignation to H___h___ charter school shortly after receiving the telephone call from the public school system.

So, public middle school comrades, tell me what I'm up against! I already know that I have to go in there firm and no nonsense for the first couple of months. And I know that the teaching load will be different and I'll have to deal with a variety of students that you don't typically find in charter schools (pregnant students, students with special accommodations, etc.). Also, I haven't heard anything back from Human Resources yet. I was an 'at will' employee, so I'm not sure if that means that I have to sign any exit paperwork or not.

Update

Thank you, everyone, for giving me some solid advice on how to handle this latest nonsense. I did in fact speak with the Principal yesterday morning in person. According to him, my schedule would remain the same as last year (6th grade Humanities). However *cue dramatic music*, the new vice-principal later calls me up to her office and informs me that I will in fact be required to teach 6-8 grade Science and Social Studies. She promises an aide, support materials, etc. but I don't think she understands that I have no flippin' interest in Science, and trust me, I did support my case in a rationale manner!

The only step holding me away from a preliminary teaching license is passing the State licensure test in Middle School Humanities. Once I do that (lord willing I'll have my passing score by December 20007), then the last step is mere paperwork. I did inquire about any last minute teaching opportunities in my local public school system with my former guidance counselor just to see what's up... I tell you, this whole situation has really left a sour taste in my mouth about teaching, and most especially, about ineffective administrators. While it wouldn't be fair to the kids to jet once the school year has begun, what sense does it make to agree to teach something that I know I have no passion in?

Changes

I just got off the phone with one of my team teachers and the shit has officially hit the fan! I'm 3/4 of the way certified as a 5-8 grade Humanities teacher (I work at a charter school which does not require their teachers to be certified at the time of hire). Please explain to me why:

--I may be teaching 6-8 grade Science (I have NO experience with science beyond my k-12 education. Hello, my degrees are in African American Studies and Gender/Cultural Studies!!)

--I called the principal yesterday and explicitly ASKED him if I would still be teaching 6th grade Humanities as I want to be prepared with lesson plans for the first 2 weeks. According to that conversation, he said that I'll still be teaching 6th Humanities.

And the kicker
--The principal has not called me yet! Rather, these changes was relayed to me at least 2 times removed (school secretary, team teacher).

I have to curb my initial reaction to this bullshit and calmly explain my position tomorrow. Here's my initial script:

I am concerned about some recent changes to the Middle School staff at H______ Charter School. In the interests of the students and preparation for the State examination, I would prefer to remain in the subject matter that I have some expertise in: Humanities. I understand that change is inevitable, however, if at all possible, the school should retain/attract a teacher with more direct experience teaching or working in a science-related field for the Middle School level. I hope that you take my concerns into account while preparing for the new school year.

Fellow teachers, I need your feedback. How would you handle this situation? Should I get my certification, give my 2 week notice, and leave these suckers in the dust? Has this ever happened to you?

On (not) Liking Kids

http://www.pbs.org/onlyateacher/today8.html

“We don't like our kids. This is a country, this is a nation of people who don't like their kids.” ~

Frank McCourt

Is this true, U.S.A.? Do we really not like our kids? It seems like such a juxtaposition; we live in a country with an extraordinary amount of resources for (wealthy) infertile couples who want to have children, we offer our children extracurricular activities ranging from baseball practice to yoga. Yet, having recently finished my first year as a teacher, McCourt has touched a raw nerve. He's right, we don't like our kids.

If we did, I wouldn't have had to advise a student on whether or not he was ready for his first kiss. Or give up part of my lunch to make sure that one of my female students ate something every day. Or have to explain to one of my students the difference between a true friend and an enemy. Don't get me wrong, I know that compassion is part of being an effective teacher. However, there's only so much that one teacher can do with the limited resources. Some days, it really does seem like many of my students' parents just don't like their kids. Thoughts? Comments?