Thursday, April 9, 2015

This must be...

a test! I'm so tempted to apply for teaching positions, specifically in a private school or suburban setting, under the false belief that it will be 'better'. If I'm honest with myself, it's not the setting that needs changing--it's me. I desperately need to find a position that fosters my creativity and/or allows me to connect with others, human to human. I know that, as it currently stands, all schools have to answer to 'someone'--be it parents, community members, board members, city, state, and/or national officials. Right now, I'm done with answering to people, at least about things (standardized test scores, results of poverty, etc.) that I don't have answers for.

2 comments:

Margaret said...

They might be different questions and conversations, but I get what you're saying. We tend to feel secure in what we know(warts and all!) and that is the temptation. Part of me is terrified to retire, afraid that I won't have enough to do or the ability to set my own schedule. I'm worried that I'll miss the connections with students and other staff and the interaction with people in general. We are both facing BIG STEPS forward into uncharted territory. xoxo

laniza said...

Thanks! Ther's wisdom in just 'being'.